15 Ocak gecesi g\u00fcl\u00fcm soruyor, yaln\u0131z m\u0131s\u0131n diye. Tabi ki de\u011filim. Ayr\u0131l\u0131k, \u00f6zlem de var bende demek geldi i\u00e7imden ve s\u00f6yledim de. Asl\u0131nda gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda t\u00fcm an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n kaybolmas\u0131n\u0131 diliyorum ki, sadece sen kalabilesin benli\u011fimde, lekesiz bir akl\u0131kta. Sahnede hayk\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi uykusuz, aksi ve nalet oldum iyiden iyiye. Karanl\u0131klar sa\u00e7an bir y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131m gecenin zifirinde. I\u015f\u0131ks\u0131z, kapkara, zehir, z\u0131kk\u0131m. Bunca y\u0131l hi\u00e7 b\u00f6yle olmad\u0131m. \u00c7ok ac\u0131 \u00e7ekiyorum \u00e7ok. Hatta kutsal ba\u011f\u0131m kesilirken anam\u0131n rahminden bu kadar ac\u0131 \u00e7ekmedim inan. K\u0131ymamak i\u00e7in ne sana, ne kendime, b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 sokmal\u0131y\u0131m h\u0131\u015f\u0131mla s\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u0131n\u0131na. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015fimdi tam sar\u0131lma zaman\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sevgilim bu her dal\u0131 yemi\u015f dolu ya\u015fanas\u0131 d\u00fcnyada, ya\u015farken kendim i\u00e7in d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm her \u015feyi senin i\u00e7inde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum inan. Bazen \u00f6yle oluyorum ki ben yokmu\u015fum da yaln\u0131z sen varm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n gibi geliyor bana. Bazen ise seni yok olmu\u015f gibi hissediyorum. Ve sonra deh\u015fetli bir ac\u0131 ve korku duyuyor ve derhal kendiminde yok oldu\u011funu hissediyorum. Bir kez daha s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum, bestelerimi be\u011fenmeyen bir insanla ahbapl\u0131k edebilirim. Fakat, seni sevmeyen ve seni k\u0131ran bir insanla asla.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sevgilim, sen beni bilirsin. L\u00fczumundan fazla hassas, \u015fair ve romanti\u011fim. Her hadiseyi yaln\u0131z \u015fuurla de\u011fil, kalbim hisle de i\u015fler, yo\u011furur ve ona en akla hayale gelmez \u015fekiller ve \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcler verir. Bu benim en b\u00fcy\u00fck kusurum ya da en b\u00fcy\u00fck meziyetimdir. Ne halt edeyim yarat\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131m b\u00f6yle. Hele senden ve sevdiklerimden uzakta olmak bende bu hassasiyeti \u00e7o\u011falt\u0131yor. \u0130nan bazen bir dostun s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u00f6ylesine yaslamak istiyorum ki ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131, i\u015fte o zaman omzunu veya o \u015fefkat dolu g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fc ar\u0131yorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u015fairin deyimiyle \u2018\u015eU KA\u0130NAT DENEN NESNEN\u0130N \u0130\u00c7\u0130NDE, EN \u00c7OK SEVD\u0130\u011e\u0130M Y\u00dcREK, \u00dcZER\u0130NE EN \u00c7OK T\u0130TRED\u0130\u011e\u0130M \u0130NSAN KALB\u0130, SEN\u0130N G\u00d6\u011eS\u00dcN\u00dcN \u0130\u00c7\u0130NE TAKILI OLANDIR.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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15 Ocak gecesi g\u00fcl\u00fcm soruyor, yaln\u0131z m\u0131s\u0131n diye. Tabi ki de\u011filim. Ayr\u0131l\u0131k, \u00f6zlem de var bende demek geldi i\u00e7imden ve s\u00f6yledim de. Asl\u0131nda gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda t\u00fcm an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n kaybolmas\u0131n\u0131 diliyorum ki, sadece sen kalabilesin benli\u011fimde, lekesiz bir akl\u0131kta. Sahnede hayk\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi uykusuz, aksi ve nalet oldum iyiden iyiye. Karanl\u0131klar sa\u00e7an bir y\u0131ld\u0131z\u0131m gecenin zifirinde. I\u015f\u0131ks\u0131z, kapkara,… Okumaya devam et S\u00f6z Olsam da S\u00f6ylesem Sana<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/176"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=176"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/176\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":177,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/176\/revisions\/177"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=176"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=176"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=176"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}