\u015eu an yayladaki evimde tek ba\u015f\u0131ma, el gibi \u00e7\u0131plak ve yaln\u0131z\u0131m. Asl\u0131nda yaln\u0131z de\u011fil, zaman gibi ebedi olan g\u00f6zlerin var kar\u015f\u0131mda. Uzakta k\u0131r\u0131lan K\u0131z\u0131la\u011fa\u00e7 dal\u0131n\u0131n sesini, ya\u011fmurun \u0131slatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 topra\u011f\u0131n ve otlar\u0131n kokusunu duyuyor, ye\u015fil bir \u00e7am orman\u0131nda kayboluyorum zaman zaman. Doruklarda bulutlarla \u015fakala\u015fan r\u00fczgarla birlikte ya\u015fam\u0131n t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum. Zirvelerinden karlar\u0131n eksilmedi\u011fi yemye\u015fil da\u011flarda, ya\u011fmur toplayan bulutlar gibi duygular\u0131n\u0131 yo\u011funla\u015ft\u0131ran y\u00fcre\u011fimin sevinciyle g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcyorum. Ben burada bir r\u00fczgar gibi, bir halk t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc gibi h\u00fcr\u00fcm. Sen ise oradas\u0131n yavrum ve de k\u0131r\u0131lamayacak kadar da k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcks\u00fcn hen\u00fcz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yanaklar\u0131 Kamaha elmas\u0131 sevgilim. Yok, yok k\u0131rlang\u0131\u00e7 ku\u015fum. Ben sensiz yapamam. Sesini i\u015fitip yerimden f\u0131rlamal\u0131y\u0131m, a\u011f\u0131z dolusu g\u00fclmeliyiz. Bana tat, bana uyku gibi gelen sevgilim. Sensiz edemem. G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir \u00e7ocuktan alan sevgilim. Yast\u0131klardaki ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ize kurban oldu\u011fum. Her an kafam\u0131n i\u00e7erisinde eser durursun ve orada hi\u00e7bir \u015fey yok senden \u00f6nceme ve sana ait olmayan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ate\u015fin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck pilli radyomu dinliyorum. \u015eark\u0131lar da ne g\u00fczel anlat\u0131yor seni bana: \u2018Neredesin karag\u00f6zl\u00fcm?\u2019 diyor \u015fark\u0131. Nerdesin? Ben de bu \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 s\u00f6yleyene \u2018merak etme\u2019 diyorum. Birazdan g\u00fcn g\u00f6zlerinde do\u011facak g\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fcn. G\u00fcn onunla do\u011frulup kalkacak karanl\u0131klar\u0131n derinliklerinden ve yolculu\u011fa haz\u0131r ayd\u0131nl\u0131k bir yelkenli gibi olacak sabahleyin odam\u0131zda karanl\u0131k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eairin deyimiyle: \u2018G\u00fcl\u00fcm, \u00e7\u0131kar yataktan bir kay\u0131s\u0131 gibi \u00e7\u0131plak, mavi afi\u015fteki g\u00fcvercin gibi akt\u0131r sabah karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yatak.\u2019<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Son hayalim, son hasretim, son s\u00f6z\u00fcm, \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131m benim. A\u00e7maya duran g\u00fcl\u00fcm. Beni i\u015fitiyor musun? Ben seni hala sevmekle me\u015fgul\u00fcm.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015e\u00f6valyen,
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\u015eu an yayladaki evimde tek ba\u015f\u0131ma, el gibi \u00e7\u0131plak ve yaln\u0131z\u0131m. Asl\u0131nda yaln\u0131z de\u011fil, zaman gibi ebedi olan g\u00f6zlerin var kar\u015f\u0131mda. Uzakta k\u0131r\u0131lan K\u0131z\u0131la\u011fa\u00e7 dal\u0131n\u0131n sesini, ya\u011fmurun \u0131slatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 topra\u011f\u0131n ve otlar\u0131n kokusunu duyuyor, ye\u015fil bir \u00e7am orman\u0131nda kayboluyorum zaman zaman. Doruklarda bulutlarla \u015fakala\u015fan r\u00fczgarla birlikte ya\u015fam\u0131n t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum. Zirvelerinden karlar\u0131n eksilmedi\u011fi yemye\u015fil da\u011flarda, ya\u011fmur toplayan… Okumaya devam et Sevgilim,<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-162","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-yazilarim","entry"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/162","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=162"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/162\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":163,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/162\/revisions\/163"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=162"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=162"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=162"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}