Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey seni yeniden hat\u0131rlamak. Etimde so\u011fuk, kara sapl\u0131 bir b\u0131\u00e7ak gibi de\u011fil, hasret ate\u015finde d\u00f6v\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f s\u0131ms\u0131cak bir demir gibi. Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni, bunca kalabal\u0131kta ve bunca yorgunluklar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Hem de ya\u015f\u0131m k\u0131rk\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015f iken, hem de elin elimde olmadan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Gece ceylanlara su vermeye \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bah\u00e7ede bir ses duydum ve o sese do\u011fru kulak kabartt\u0131m. Sonra s\u0131rt \u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7imenlere uzand\u0131m. Kara kedi gibiydi karanl\u0131k. Sanki Karadeniz ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131yordu beni. Bir an \u00fcrperdim. Vefal\u0131 topra\u011f\u0131m\u0131n feryad\u0131n\u0131 duydum. Babaannemi bile hat\u0131rlad\u0131m nedense. Sonra dizlerime kadar suya girdim, denize a\u011f atmak i\u00e7in. Arkam\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde ise k\u0131y\u0131da \u00e7\u0131plak ayakl\u0131 sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n bir \u00e7ocuk a\u011flamaktayd\u0131 sanki. Yan\u0131mda ise ipini koparm\u0131\u015f bo\u015f bir bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131 kay\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir mart\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc gibi sallanmaktayd\u0131 suyun \u00fczerinde. Uzand\u0131m ama tutamad\u0131m. Gitti \u2013 gidiyor suyun getirdi\u011fi yere. Gidiyor par\u00e7alanmak i\u00e7in kar\u015f\u0131 kayal\u0131klara.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130\u015fte b\u00f6yle sevgilim. D\u00fcn gece uzakta kuytu bir yerden sesler geldi bana. Yoksa ne dersin sevgilim, bu u\u011fultu eski sevgiliyi bana getiren r\u00fczgar m\u0131yd\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Son s\u00f6z\u00fcm, yutkunu\u015fum, nar tanem; Maddi manevi kay\u0131plar\u0131m oldu, hatta zaman zaman sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 kaybetti\u011fim de oldu. Ama ba\u011f\u0131ms\u0131z ya\u015famama, g\u00fczel g\u00fcnlere ve de en \u00f6nemlisi sana g\u00fcvenimi kaybetmedim hi\u00e7bir zaman. Art\u0131k ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131 olgunlukla kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131yorum bir tanem. \u00d6lmeye pek niyetim yok ve hatta bencil ve sevgisiz insanlara inat ya\u015famakta ayak direyece\u011fimi de s\u00f6ylemi\u015ftim sana. D\u00fc\u015fman\u0131m da yok ama g\u00fcn\u00fcn birinde halden bilmez, namussuz biri taraf\u0131ndan \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclebilirim de. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc s\u00f6yledi\u011fim gibi hayat\u0131n i\u00e7inde her \u015fey var. Olsun, ben yine de ya\u015famakta devam edece\u011fim yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ben senin her yan\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7ek a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f yemi\u015flerle dolu fidana benzeyen g\u00fczel y\u00fcz\u00fcne hasret ya\u015fayamam.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Daha \u00f6nce s\u00f6yledi\u011fim gibi beyaz di\u015flerinle ezdi\u011fin \u00fcz\u00fcmlere doyamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, g\u00fczel g\u00fcnleri ellerinin i\u00e7inde ta\u015f\u0131yan k\u0131z\u0131lc\u0131k dudakl\u0131 sevgilim. Bu ak\u015fam i\u00e7imde yakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n sevda ate\u015fi i\u00e7in binlerce te\u015fekk\u00fcr yetmez, bari uzat \u00f6p\u00fclesi ellerini \u00f6peyim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey seni yeniden hat\u0131rlamak. Etimde so\u011fuk, kara sapl\u0131 bir b\u0131\u00e7ak gibi de\u011fil, hasret ate\u015finde d\u00f6v\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f s\u0131ms\u0131cak bir demir gibi. Ne g\u00fczel \u015fey hat\u0131rlamak seni, bunca kalabal\u0131kta ve bunca yorgunluklar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7inde. Hem de ya\u015f\u0131m k\u0131rk\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015f iken, hem de elin elimde olmadan. Gece ceylanlara su vermeye \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda bah\u00e7ede bir ses duydum ve o sese… Okumaya devam et K\u0131z\u0131lc\u0131\u011f\u0131ma<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/156"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=156"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/156\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":157,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/156\/revisions\/157"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=156"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=156"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/volkankonak.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=156"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}